I am terribly awkward and self conscious. Never been into parties or clubbing where I didn’t already know and was comfortable with everyone there. I prefer one on one meetings over tea with someone I know and like, rather than group reunions where conversation often takes a superficial turn.
I feel like such a weirdo at times.
I feel like the odd one out.
The one who failed.
I prefer conversing with people online perhaps, because I am so self-conscious and don’t think I would be interesting in the least in person. I most definitely know I will disappoint. I sound a lot better than I really am.
It’s only now, in my 40’s, that I truly relish the quiet and peace of solitude. Yes, I’m like the typical old fogie now – please turn down the noise.