My partner who is extremely private and protective, was wondering if I was revealing too much about my diagnosis. I kinda grappled with that myself for a moment, which is why it took me so long to start writing about it (besides the extreme fatigue I was experiencing). But I finally figured I’m doing this to help and reach out to others who may be going through the same thing and are feeling lost and alone. If I leave out critical information about my diagnosis then it would be far less helpful.
Even for me, reading posts by other people with cancer helps so much. It’s reassuring to know that I’m not the only one experiencing certain side effects and that it’s ‘normal’.
Also I want to warn people of the symptoms so that they can have early detection. Especially since the symptoms for Ovarian Cancer are so vague and often ignored.
And for selfish, indulgent reasons, writing is therapeutic. I write in my journal (Moleskin) as well, but there is something special about writing for an audience, especially when they interact with you through the comments, twitter or Instagram.
It’s a great way to update loved ones as well. Much easier this way than talking about it multiple times in person. I also tend to express myself better this way. It’s a way to tell everyone how you feel before it’s too late. Mushy things are easier written down in our Asian society adverse to gushing emotions. I tend to be highly emotive though. My heart is for all to see and I can never hide how I feel.
I feel so encouraged that they continue to support my blog and have been doing so since I started blogging way back in 2005.