Category Archives: Cancer

Phantom Pony Tail & Other Things After Chemo

I tend to keep my hair tied up, off my neck, because of the sweltering heat in Singapore. But now after chemo and without hair I still tend to forget, & my hands reach back to retie my pony tail … Continue reading

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What Bothers Me the Most About Loosing My Hair

What bothers me most is not what I imagined in the beginning. Before the chemo and corresponding hair loss started. Of course it was devastating to see my long locks of hair falling out in clumps. Almost a whole ponytail … Continue reading

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Things I’m Looking Forward to After I’m Done with Chemo & Radiation

I know I’ll never quite be done as I previously imagined (there is no cure for cancer) and will have to be very vigilant with regular scans and blood tests, but being done with chemo and radiation will be great. … Continue reading

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Dining Out In Singapore During Chemo

I would have never given this a second thought before, but it’s awful to never get a chance to dine out. During my first chemo cycle when my drastic hysterectomy (including removal of womb, Fallopian tubes, ovaries, 21 lymph nodes … Continue reading

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My Chemo Brain

It’s real and is worse during the chemotherapy session itself. I can’t do more than one thing at a time and find it a huge effort to listen and respond to people talking to me. Just listening and trying to … Continue reading

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Thinking About How to Revive Myself

I had a plan to blog about my most recent trips to Danang, Perth and Sydney, but the amount of photos I took make the task overwhelming. But I will attempt it bit by bit. Hope I can point out … Continue reading

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Living For the Day

Might be easier to live day by day or moment by moment rather than to think about the future. And by think I mean worry, which is something I can get an Olympic medal for. During this time you start … Continue reading

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Confused by My Diagnosis

I’m still trying to wrap my head around my diagnosis. When I first heard that I had ovarian cancer stage 1c I thought great, it will be all cured with the hysterectomy. But after the surgery and biopsies another cancer … Continue reading

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Longing to Travel Again

I was supposed to go on a trip to Sri Lanka with my mum and sis for their birthdays. We did months of research and planning, but it had to be cancelled due to my need for immediate surgery to … Continue reading

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Pretty Things

Retail therapy is great. Been doing more online shopping where you can often get better prices, but it’s nice to get out of the house to a quiet mall and just browse. It’s relaxing to just gaze at pretty things. … Continue reading

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Is This Really Happening?

Often this whole journey feels unreal. Do I really have cancer? Just some months ago I was fine. This day is also significant as 15 years ago at 11pm I had to have a emergency appendectomy and at that time … Continue reading

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Best Day in Months

Visited my Aunt, Uncle and nieces today and felt so much joy and love it was indescribable. I was on cloud nine. Energized me so much that chemo fatigue was truly non existent. The innocence, pure love and exuberance of … Continue reading

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About Being Positive And Cancer

I had a good mind to start a whole new secret private blog for cancer, but I decided, heck it, I’m writing from my heart, and writers have to be brutally honest, so I just have to hope that people … Continue reading

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The Worst Part of Cancer

The worst part is definitely a sense of loosing your independence and not being able to do what you used to. I feel it most painfully in the simple things like not being able to carry my nieces or run … Continue reading

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I Have Cancer: Synchronous Ovarian & Endometrial Cancer

This feels unreal to me, even now, after months of knowing. Felt surreal and indulgent as I typed out that title. It’s why I have not been writing in ages. I’ve only had the energy to update my Instagram with … Continue reading

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