Tag Archives: cancer

Feeling Extreme Anxiety & Worthlessness

Posted on January 19, 2019 by bookjunkie

Been feeling especially insecure lately. Exceptionally down emotionally. Don’t feel like a worthy human being. Or at least in this world that values superficial things and status. This world where bullies thrive and aggression is rewarded. I just want peace … Continue reading →

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My 3rd Cancerversary

Posted on January 5, 2019 by bookjunkie

Not sure how WordPress works anymore as I haven’t written for so long, everything feels strange. I was discouraged as I spent so much time on deleting spam and updating the tech stuff. Just want to write to offload some … Continue reading →

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Trying Not to be Scared

Posted on October 14, 2017 by bookjunkie

Honestly I can’t tell if it’s better or worse not knowing the staging of my endometrial cancer. Perhaps it’s better not to know. The Doctors have admitted that my situation is so rare that there are some things they just … Continue reading →

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Looking Back

Posted on June 24, 2016 by bookjunkie

Grateful for every single visit I got in the hospital and at home since I was diagnosed this January. Each of those visits made the journey so much more bearable and even brought so many moments of joy. Feel so … Continue reading →

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Family

Posted on June 15, 2016 by bookjunkie

The thing that makee me the happiest is family harmony and love. Nothing beats warm hugs from loved ones. I think most of my family have no idea how much I love them. I don’t really express it, but I … Continue reading →

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Anxious about Hospitalisations

Posted on May 27, 2016 by bookjunkie

Been hoping that I could leave my hospitalisation days behind, but recently had to be hospitalised again for a blood transfusion. Chemo attacks dividing cells and that includes red blood cells. Was very reluctant and dejected about going in, as … Continue reading →

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Been Reading Inspirational Blogs

Posted on May 9, 2016 by bookjunkie

Been reading inspirational blogs by women going through the cancer journey, surgery chemo and the whole works. I admire them so much and often their heartfelt posts make me tear. Just want to reach out and have some kind of … Continue reading →

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Clueless Before Cancer

Posted on April 21, 2016 by bookjunkie

1. I had no idea that it was the chemo that caused side effects like loosing your hair. I actually thought it was the cancer itself that caused hair loss. Now I feel silly. 2. I was afraid of Chemotherapy … Continue reading →

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Phantom Pony Tail & Other Things After Chemo

Posted on April 20, 2016 by bookjunkie

I tend to keep my hair tied up, off my neck, because of the sweltering heat in Singapore. But now after chemo and without hair I still tend to forget, & my hands reach back to retie my pony tail … Continue reading →

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What Bothers Me the Most About Loosing My Hair

Posted on April 18, 2016 by bookjunkie

What bothers me most is not what I imagined in the beginning. Before the chemo and corresponding hair loss started. Of course it was devastating to see my long locks of hair falling out in clumps. Almost a whole ponytail … Continue reading →

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