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Invisible Chains. I Want to Break Them.

I have these constant feelings of constriction and I just need and want to be free. Free to realise the dreams and vision I always had till I stopped them in their tracks because there came a point when if … Continue reading

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Hollow

I don’t even hope for happiness. All I hope for is peace of mind and no more of this zero self esteem. It has plummeted so low and I feel like a total failure. I just have to keep writing … Continue reading

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Crashing

Don’t know how to exist anymore numb to the world a million thoughts crashing halting sleep disappointment upon waking Must keep going maybe there will be light around the corner (My posts make sound hollow these days, but I will … Continue reading

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Sadness

No mood or energy to do anything. Your mind is wandering. Everything feels raw and you’re in limbo. Paralyzed by fear. Surreal But you have to go through the motions. Immerse yourself in work and carry on. Be detached and … Continue reading

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Hermit Tendencies

I am increasingly becoming a social recluse. I often wish I could make myself disappear to avoid painful interactions. My old social care-free self seems like a lifetime ago. And perhaps I was never really that social, but just going … Continue reading

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Worry & Depression: What Can Get Me Down

I can be up and cheery, but the tiniest things can cause a major mood shift. Someone dropping an insensitive remark can send me into a tailspin of depression. And the person dropping the remark probably did not think of … Continue reading

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Not Feeling Well

Have been really ill (as in, almost passed out ill) and I just hope I recover before my birthday. Never been ill on my birthday before and don’t want to set a new record. Everyone in my family is ill … Continue reading

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How Many People in Singapore Feel at Times

The advert is directed at something else, but I saw the picture of the woman on the bus, I immediately thought stressed and squeezed. And somehow it was apt that it was raining that day. Some days we all feel … Continue reading

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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness

Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading

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Video: Dr Ang of SDP Talks about the 2009 Recession, Job Loss & Stress

I can so relate to this. A job is so much part of your identity and it can be devastating to be unemployed. The worries can be intense. Dr Ang also talks about job pay cuts and how this affects … Continue reading

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