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What I Dreamt

It was very vivid. I was desperately trying to text my dad. I wanted to text him that I miss him so much, because he’s been away for two weeks and also that I love him so much. The desperation … Continue reading

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What I Admired Most About My Father (My Darling Papa)

I decided to pose the same question to myself and found myself floored. The word admiration seemed so distant and didn’t quite cover it. A primary school composition answer would be “He was the most handsome and intelligent person to … Continue reading

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What I Admired Most about My Father (Partner Edition)

His penmanship comes to mind. It was beautifully and artistically rendered. Calligraphy in fact. I admired his cool signature. He had to stop schooling at Primary 3 because he was biologically the eldest kid and had 5 or 6 younger … Continue reading

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What do you Admire Most about your Father? Question posed to my Uncle, Aunt & Mum

I’ve been exploring prompting questions to ask my relatives, and I thought this was a good one. It really doesn’t matter if the answer goes a bit off tangent as the key goal is to prompt memories about a loved … Continue reading

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#5. Letter to my Papa

Papa, so often in the past 19 years, there have been world events and even just local events that I want to talk to you about. Just so much of life is happening and it’s not fair that you’re missing … Continue reading

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#4. Letter to my Papa

My biggest worry is forgetting. I want you never to be forgotten, but lately my memory has taken a hit after two rounds of chemo and the general anaesthesia that comes with surgeries. This is why, even though I’ll probably … Continue reading

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#3. Letter to my Papa

I feel lonely without you. I thought the vacuum wouldn’t remain for this long, but it has for almost 19 years now. Me missing you is a testament to what a good father you were. I didn’t realise it then, … Continue reading

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#2. Letter to my Papa

It’s strange that when you were around, this tone that I’m using in these letters, would sound unnatural and extremely awkward. I used to talk to you in such an abrupt manner filled with such cockiness. I’m not a confident … Continue reading

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Why I Take Lots of Photos

I’m referring to photos I take of family. It’s a simple reason. It’s because I wish I had more photos with my dad. I do have my memories of sweet times with him but the photos help jog my memory … Continue reading

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Movies About Hope & Faith: Jeff Who Lives at Home & Salmon Fishing in The Yemen

Watched two movies recently. Jeff Who Lives at Home and Salmon Fishing in The Yemen. Both tell very different stories, but I found a similar theme of hope and faith. The slacker movie appealed to me a lot more. I … Continue reading

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Downton Abbey & Memories

I’ve been hooked by the magic of Downton Abbey. The characters feel so real to me and I think about them even after the show is over. I feel concern for them. Is that silly or what? I’m the same … Continue reading

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Not Feeling Well

Have been really ill (as in, almost passed out ill) and I just hope I recover before my birthday. Never been ill on my birthday before and don’t want to set a new record. Everyone in my family is ill … Continue reading

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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness

Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading

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Steve’s Firstborn: Lisa Brennan-Jobs

I am a sucker for father daughter stories and recently I have been captivated when I stumbled upon an article about Steve Jobs’ eldest child. I had not heard about Lisa Brennan till today. She is a writer and just … Continue reading

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Home by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic Zeros (& Little Alexa on Ellen)

This blog is about Singapore, but I do often feel compelled to talk about things that move me, that come from outside this tiny island. Lately I have been moved by the song Home by Edward Sharp and the Magnetic … Continue reading

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Grief & Healing: Fix You by Coldplay

A song that spoke to me when I was pining for my dad, was ‘Fix You’.  It was no surprise to learn that Chris Martin wrote the song for his wife after she was shattered by her father’s death. It … Continue reading

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To Blog or To Read

Please pardon my lack of blogging. You see, I am so engrossed in the Peter Mayle novel that I’m reading that even though I have tons of photos I haven’t posted them yet. I am also overwhelmed by the tons … Continue reading

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A Father’s Tribute to His Daughter Zoe

The father happens to be the founder of Ted TV, Chris Anderson, and this is the moving tribute in pictures to his firstborn Zoe who passed away at just 24. I just feel compelled to share the link here. In … Continue reading

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Celebrity Father Daughter Pictures that Melt My Heart

I haven’t been following up on my celebrity blogs for some time, so maybe the addiction is waning a little. When I went to my favourite blog, Celebrity Baby Scoop today I saw some precious father daughter shots I just … Continue reading

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Doesn’t Feel like Christmas

Sigh….no singer’s voice today can match the beauty of Karen’s Carpenter’s alto tone…. It stopped feeling like truly Christmas when I lost my father, so this song reminds me of him. I am not feeling particularly depressed, because B cheered … Continue reading

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The One Thing I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self

The one thing I wish I could tell my younger self would be not related to my career, education or money errors, but just this – to not take my father for granted and to have treasured him when I … Continue reading

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Paris Jackson Tells Oprah that Michael was the Best Dad and Made the Best French Toast

In a really sweet video Paris and Prince talk about what it’s like being at school after being home-schooled all their lives. Paris is such a calm, highly articulate and intelligent young girl. She’s so beautiful too and seems to … Continue reading

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