Tag Archives: feelings

Being Human

The inadequacy I feel is crushing. I can’t believe I am here. How did I even get here? I know the various traumas. I feel like a broken recorder. No one likes to hear complaints. Well perhaps you won’t mind … Continue reading

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Trying to Help Myself

I tend to build up negative scenarios in my head that never materialise in real life. Often they have to do with failure and rejection. Often these scenes appear in my nightmares when I try « not to think » … Continue reading

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About Being Positive And Cancer

I had a good mind to start a whole new secret private blog for cancer, but I decided, heck it, I’m writing from my heart, and writers have to be brutally honest, so I just have to hope that people … Continue reading

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Sometimes I Make Myself Cringe

I haven’t written in a long while and cringe as I spot grammatical errors (typos or the result of the darn autocorrect function on my iPhone) I’ve made and my juvenile writing style.  Most of all, I disappoint myself with … Continue reading

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This Week

It’s been an emotionally draining week. I have been more touched than I ever thought I would be. Even now after the national week of mourning is over, you somehow don’t feel the same. I have a greater sense of … Continue reading

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Total Opposite of a Social Butterfly

I don’t like bumping into people from my ‘past lives’ (when you’re old enough you will have this). This imp’s blog post reminded me of it and thank goodness I’m not such a misfit after all. There are people with … Continue reading

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Everyone Needs Peace of Mind

Reading the tweets of people I follow on twitter and my heart goes out to them. Often they are expressing exactly what I’m feeling. Everyone wants peace of mind and everyone wants to stop the train of worries. Wish there … Continue reading

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Do You Have a Hard Time Saying No?

This is not a motivational post that offers solutions. I can’t offer any solutions as I have a hard time saying no myself. The worse thing ever is a guilt trip. I often wish guilt trips wouldn’t work so easily … Continue reading

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New Year is Coming

End of the year always feels like such an incredible rush. A little bit of a panic, but all due to a yearning to do everything and have all the things done and perfect by 2013. Too many things to … Continue reading

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Internet Tribes, Kindred Spirits

I think people who have a compelling need to write, feel emotions intensely. If we don’t put it down and share it somewhere, we will burst. I find that we also tend to dream so vividly that it seems real. … Continue reading

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Halloween Orange & Blues

I’m loving the halloween decorations in Singapore. I somehow find all the orange and pumpkins very festive and cheerful and hardly spooky. Orange was also my dad’s favourite colour. He chose our orange sofa and orange floor tiles for instance. … Continue reading

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Worries & Wishes

Wish I could stop being such a worry wart but I think it’s genetically programmed in me to be anxious. Sometimes that can be a good thing because I tend to get things done due to anxiety, but when the … Continue reading

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Why I Still Blog

It’s hard to say some things face to face. Maybe it’s the repressed side of me. Especially mushy things. But mostly if I am no longer here tomorrow (we never know when we’re going), I am glad my loved ones … Continue reading

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My Thoughts about Not Being a Mum

I wrote a very personal post at Guillaume’s blog, White as Milk, about what it feels like to not be a mum.  Hope it’s not too much of a downer. But just in that moment I felt that expressing those feelings … Continue reading

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Conflicted

I must sound so extreme. Sometimes my blog is filled with happy go lucky posts where I seem to be having the time of my life. And at other times I feel guilty for what must seem like – whining. … Continue reading

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Stuck in a Rut

Some days I’m up and some days I’m down.  Been feeling a bit down lately.  Didn’t help that I was catching a cold too. Some days it feels like I am wasting time writing my blog and I am starting … Continue reading

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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness

Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading

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Emotionally Draining Day

It’s been a hard day. I’ve been on a mental emotional roller-coaster. I feel so drained right now. Glad that one of my loved ones is ok for the moment and I hope out of the woods soon. Someone close … Continue reading

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What do Taylor Swift and Bob Dylan have in Common?

The sad fact about life is that when you get to a certain age, you would have had the misfortune to encounter at least one really mean people.  If not, then you’re really lucky.   As I was trawling the … Continue reading

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The Sunrise and Why I Didn’t Fancy ‘Inception’

I love seeing the morning sky. The mornings always make me feel more hopeful than the nights. My nights are filled with anxiety and a sense of unfulfillment that ironically make me too wound up and tense, to sleep. When … Continue reading

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Life at the Equator

The ringing of the phone grated on my nerves.  “Hello are you Miss…..”  I hung up the phone.  Yet another telemarketer going through the directory, mispronouncing my name. I was sticky and uncomfortable.  How I longed for rain.  On days … Continue reading

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