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Conversations About The Second World War

We mentioned to my almost 86 year old uncle that we recently visited the National Museum. There was an exhibit about the Second World War and Japanese Occupation of Singapore. It made him recollect: “When we heard the sirens we … Continue reading

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Grief

I needed to find some distance, before I wrote this post. A lot of it is just too painful, locked away somewhere in my sub-conscience, revealed in my recurring dreams. I understand now that grief is the intense longing. No, … Continue reading

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23rd March 2015

Singaporeans won’t forget the day we lost a giant – an immeasurably brilliant leader. Can’t think of Singapore without thinking of Lee Kuan Yew. Even if we didn’t agree with the methods we can’t help, but admire what he has … Continue reading

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Our Shooting Star

Thinking about someone very close to me today. Someone we lost. Someone who is always on my mind even if it’s been a few years. Time becomes immaterial when you lose someone, although time does help you cope. He had … Continue reading

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Why I Take Lots of Photos

I’m referring to photos I take of family. It’s a simple reason. It’s because I wish I had more photos with my dad. I do have my memories of sweet times with him but the photos help jog my memory … Continue reading

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Movies About Hope & Faith: Jeff Who Lives at Home & Salmon Fishing in The Yemen

Watched two movies recently. Jeff Who Lives at Home and Salmon Fishing in The Yemen. Both tell very different stories, but I found a similar theme of hope and faith. The slacker movie appealed to me a lot more. I … Continue reading

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Beautiful Articulate Bobbi Kristina in an interview with Oprah

I felt so moved by this interview that Oprah had with Bobbi Kristina about the loss of her mum Whitney Houston.  It’s pretty hard to watch, but I am blown away by how articulate and strong she is. Lights flickering, … Continue reading

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I Lucked Out

In other areas of my life I may gripe and feel like I have a raw deal, and feel extreme anxiety over why things are the way they are, but in one area I sometimes feel on top of the … Continue reading

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My Grief, Resentment & Desire for Happiness

Update 10/10/11: I know this was a hard one to respond to, but I really appreciate the notes you’ve left and just the good energy you always send my way. Some days I’m down and some days I’m up and … Continue reading

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Co-Founder of Apple Steve Woz Talks about his Friend Steve Jobs

Sorry for the millions of posts I am writing about Steve Jobs but I think I am not alone in my obsession and admiration. I have been having an insatiable appetite to find out all about Steve and it just … Continue reading

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Grief & Healing: Fix You by Coldplay

A song that spoke to me when I was pining for my dad, was ‘Fix You’.  It was no surprise to learn that Chris Martin wrote the song for his wife after she was shattered by her father’s death. It … Continue reading

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Emotionally Draining Day

It’s been a hard day. I’ve been on a mental emotional roller-coaster. I feel so drained right now. Glad that one of my loved ones is ok for the moment and I hope out of the woods soon. Someone close … Continue reading

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A Father’s Tribute to His Daughter Zoe

The father happens to be the founder of Ted TV, Chris Anderson, and this is the moving tribute in pictures to his firstborn Zoe who passed away at just 24. I just feel compelled to share the link here. In … Continue reading

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Miserable After the Reunion

I am debating whether to write about this at all, but I feel compelled to since all I feel like doing right now is cry. But I just feel numb. You know those times when you feel like crying, but … Continue reading

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Feeling Giddy with Happiness on New Year’s Day

After my dreary post on New Year’s eve, I went over to my aunt’s place for our annual family New Year’s eve party and had a blast!  We talked about strange things like the Mayan prediction that the world is … Continue reading

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Doesn’t Feel like Christmas

Sigh….no singer’s voice today can match the beauty of Karen’s Carpenter’s alto tone…. It stopped feeling like truly Christmas when I lost my father, so this song reminds me of him. I am not feeling particularly depressed, because B cheered … Continue reading

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When All a Scene Needs is an Elton John Song

The song Rocket Man fit the season finale of Californication so well, it was mind blowing. That plus terrific wordless acting from the achingly beautiful British actress, Natascha McElhone (she reminds me of Meryl Streep).  The fact that there are … Continue reading

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The One Thing I Wish I Could Tell My Younger Self

The one thing I wish I could tell my younger self would be not related to my career, education or money errors, but just this – to not take my father for granted and to have treasured him when I … Continue reading

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Turning 40 was Not What I Expected

The weeks leading up to 40 were filled with dread and trepidation.  I thought I would feel different and alarm would set in, but somehow I felt exactly the same on my birthday, as I did the day before.  I … Continue reading

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10 Things You May Not Know About Panic Attacks

When I first heard about panic attacks triggered by unusual causes I was one of the guilty ones who immediately thought ‘strange‘. I now can relate to why Billy Bob Thorton might be afraid of antiques and Nicole Kidman of … Continue reading

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Mad Men Cast Interviews: Jon Hamm Suffered from Chronic Depression and Took Antidepressants

I am glad when celebrities share details about their mental illnesses. It makes things easier for the rest of us. Jon Hamm’s revelation that he took medication for his depression is very significant. There is quite a stigma related to … Continue reading

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You are My Sunshine

Lost my cousin recently and I sang this song softly to him when I was deeply missing him, but couldn’t continue each time, because it always choked me up.  When I think of him, I think of yellow and the … Continue reading

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