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Playing the Piano Again

I’m feeling so happy today. I bought a new piano book at Yamaha (the old time piano studio that still exists in Singapore after all these years). Playing something new helps me assess a different party of my brain, the … Continue reading

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My Sinnamma

My mum’s younger sister is, in one significant way, like me. We are both childless by circumstance. I know for sure that my aunt always wanted kids, but in a selfish way I’m glad she didn’t or I wouldn’t have … Continue reading

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Why it’s Better to Grow Up in Singapore Today Compared to the 70’s and 80’s

These are just my personal feelings (I’m a diary blogger & not a journalist by any means) based on my particular childhood experiences some of which I don’t wish to relive. Nothing set in concrete. I used to always think … Continue reading

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This Crazy Need to be Constantly Productive

I look at characters in movies and they get so much done within a day. It makes me feel like a sloth, as on some days, even waking up is a chore. There’s this constant need to be ticking off … Continue reading

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Thoughts about Procrastination, Anxiety & Punctuality

Someone wise whom I spoke to recently, told me that she resolves her anxiety by doing something. Often she does something physical like go for a walk. This is so true. I find that when I actually do something, I’ve … Continue reading

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Conversations About The Second World War

We mentioned to my almost 86 year old uncle that we recently visited the National Museum. There was an exhibit about the Second World War and Japanese Occupation of Singapore. It made him recollect: “When we heard the sirens we … Continue reading

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Does Midlife Begin When You Hit Menopause?

My sister is 50 but hasn’t hit menopause yet and has a remarkable amount of energy. The energy she has is comparable to what I had in my twenties which makes me wonder why I’m so defective. We share 50% … Continue reading

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Anxiety: Why Am I Wired This Way?

My brain has been wired by trauma to always think of the worse possible outcome, so that I can be prepared. I’m constantly in fight or flight mode. It’s a terrible state to be in and I wish I wasn’t … Continue reading

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Is This Old Age?

I refuse to accept that I’m old at just 51. But these days, whenever I struggle to wake up, with all the muscles and joints in my upper body aching, I feel old. When my mum was 51 she looked … Continue reading

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The Oscars : About Will Smith Hitting Chris Rock

I will never condone someone loosing their temper and using violence. If someone was defending me that way I would just be mortified. That’s not love. That’s ego, rage and lack of self control. To see Will Smith cry and … Continue reading

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Just want to get back to how it was in 2019

Can we have no more restrictions please. Even though I’m an introvert who panics at the thought of too many functions, a germaphobe who jumps anytime someone sneezes or coughs too close to me, I’m just so mentally fatigued with … Continue reading

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Seeking Blogs Worth Reading in 2022: Whimsical, Genuine, Uncluttered & Well Crafted

It’s really hard to maintain a blog over the years. Several I have adored have left the scene and sadly been abandoned. They had so much potential too. So here I am seeking some new ones. As I have been … Continue reading

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Can I Go Back to the Nineties Please?

I must be missing out I think, as I watch people get ecstatic on social media, posting jubilant memes in response to Singapore lifting some covid restrictions. Alcohol consumption will soon be allowed after 10.30 pm and live music. You … Continue reading

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Dreams for My Blog

If I won the lottery tomorrow (won’t happen because I don’t even buy those things), I’d still want to continue writing and that includes blogging. I would then feel rich enough to pay a web developer for a redesign, but … Continue reading

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Blogging: Are There Any Personal Bloggers Out There Any More?

Seems really hard to find you. Most blogs seem to have a commercial slant or look truly slick and perfect, like a glossy magazine. I’m looking for something a little less polished and more raw. Something that contains not just … Continue reading

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It’s Supposed to be the First Day of Spring in The Northern Hemisphere

I say supposed to be, as we don’t really have the 4 seasons in Singapore apart from the monsoon seasons. Technically we are in the northern hemisphere, but so close to the equator that our days and nights are evenly … Continue reading

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Life is unfair and humility is underrated

I hesitate to publish my raw thoughts. I’m aware that beneath this post lies my own bitterness due to certain traumas in life. But perhaps my thoughts about disparity and privilege might strike a chord with you. You see, on … Continue reading

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Culture Shock #2: I will never understand why shoes are worn indoors

Even worse than not removing footwear and continuing to wear them indoors? Hopping onto beds with their shoes on. As a kid I just couldn’t understand it watching this on TV. I was imagining all the filth and grime from … Continue reading

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Culture Shock #1: Why is Living with Your Parents Stigmatized

As a kid in Asia I never could understand why in most Christmas movies, the kid who lives apart from their parents, often in a different State, dreads their visit. Why don’t they love their parents? It confused me on … Continue reading

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Miss Travel So Much

My father instilled in me a love for travel and some of my best memories are of car rides to Malaysia with him in the seventies. After I lost him suddenly, I was plagued with situational claustrophobia and panic attacks. … Continue reading

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What Type of Blogger are You?

I often wonder about this and I feel like I have multiple personalities as I blog about a spectrum of things ranging from the seemingly superficial and frivolous, to issues that truly bother me. Blogging is free therapy for me. … Continue reading

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Constant Feeling of Futility & the Perfectionist Tendency

I’m trying to convince myself that it’s better to get something done than nothing at all. I have this perfectionist all or nothing tendency. Even if, in my eyes it falls short of my goal for the day I shouldn’t … Continue reading

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